so, dear blog, i'm in a bit of a muddle right now.

my best friend's ignoring me, that's never a good sign, is it?

everything's just getting to me right now.. I can't focus, I can't feel happy/content until I've spoken to her. it's fucking heartbreaking, I miss her so much. and I spoke to her yesterday, I was so horrible yesterday.. I just.. fuck. I don't know what to do. You know what, I don't even think she's that bothered.. on bebo, she's replied to everyone apart from me, and her profile thing says:

Lem bum (: (?)
♥LemLemLemLemLemLemLem: love her loads, she's my best friend despite everything you lot have said, I think that pretty much speaks for itself.

She's questioning it. D:

Anyhow, the video upload wouldn't work previously, so I'm going to post it via youtube for you, shall make more sense than those crappy images. Though, the video's taking freaking years to load, too. Maybe today's just not my day..

I'll try and get on with some more coursework.. :(