well, I truly am sorry - it's not like I haven't had time to, because I have. It's more I haven't had the drive to? There's really been nothing intimately intimate I've wanted to write about. And, I also happened to catch the Tumblr fever and that's brought my level of blogging literacy to zilch. But now, let's talk.
Of course, it's the new year, nearly onto a new month of 2010, even. I'm doing particularly well at college, I reckon. I've gotten over my "I-have-no-friends" spurt and just learned to really get on well with whoever I can. I've made a couple more friends in the past few weeks and it makes me happy that I can talk to these people. That they want to talk to me. I love it. My lessons are fun, even if they don't sound it, and i'm enjoying the daily commuting and troubles with late buses, or even early buses. It's all good fun.
The other evening I went to the cinema with a couple of people from my english class and my boyfriend. That was fun, even if I cried at the film. However, that day, Vix said something that brought me down a notch. Vix is in her third year, meaning she's leaving for university in the summer and that is so stupidly close that I know it'll go quickly and I'll be missing her. I know I will, she's such a lovely person. Damn. ):
When we start our second year, our classes change completely, meaning I've got to boost my confidence up for when that comes. As Aaron says, I need to stop insulting myself and really see how beautiful I am. And although I still don't believe him - I guess I'm not the worst person to be with. I do try my best to be nice, and helpful, or polite - I want to make people smile.
I've come to smiling at anyone on the street. If they catch my eye when I look at them, I'll smile. Most of the time, you actually get a smile back. And it makes someone happy. I know I'm happier knowing not everyone is a bastard or selfless, or, whatever. It's better to believe that everyone is nice.
And if they're not? Oh well.
There's a party tomorrow. Maybe I'll boost my confidence then.
I still love you, Blogger, even if I do abandon you sometime.
Perhaps, make a mobile version of yourself.
Then we'll talk more.
xo.
