Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams?
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
- Linkin Park: "By Myself"
Oh, I forgot I could talk to you. Before you start to read, or listen, just be prepared. I'm in the mood for a philosophical rambling, so if you're not up for that, please stop right now. If not, hiya blog, I've missed you. ♥
So, what have I been up to? It's my second year of college, and I'm still doing the same subjects. Well, okay, I quit art because I thought I was going to do horrendous.. and then I got a B. Whoops. But I'm doing Media now and it's better than Politics, and I didn't think I'd ever say that. But then again, anything's better than politics now. It's all gotten shit again. I'm sorry.
Everyone's thinking of university now. And yeah, don't get me wrong, I've thought about it, but it seems there's just a big block that won't let me accept it. I don't think it's right for me, right now. And so I've decided that it'll be the best to take another year at college, get an A Level in Media and Art, and maybe Business too. But it seems no one thinks the same as me.
I mean, why should I be pressured to do something I'll waste thousands of posts on and regret the rest of my life? I'd rather stick it out for another year at college and then be ready to move onto Uni rather than feel I have to do it because people want me to. It's my future, right? I just wish teachers would understand that.
Work isn't really going anywhere. It's fun, and I do enjoy it and the people, but I don't fit in as well as everyone else. But that's kind of my life story, so I'm not bothered about that. What I am bothered about is that I've been there so long now. It's either time to find a new job, or time to work my way up. And trust me, I think that'd be cool, but I think it's too much hassle and extra work and - hey, you know me, Miss Procrastinator Pro of the Century. (;
I think that's most of my mood lifted off of my shoulders now.
And, once again, I thank Alex for reminding me about this. I actually did check his blog by my own accord a couple of days ago and saw it gathering dust like my own. But now you're getting a Spring - uh, well, Autumnal - clean, enjoy!
Lem ♥
